Transvestia

Eventually parental authority was obeyed and I moved on from Grammar school to agricultural college with considerable reluctance. It meant I would have to live away from home except on weekends. This arrangement suiting me as my father and I still continued to argue. The three years I spent at college passed fairly unevent- fully, holidays and weekends being spent at home, in spite of the strained relations between us. I soon missed the home atmosphere and as much for my own sake as that of my mother's I made peace with father. During this time I read avidly every book I could find that men- tioned crossdressing. Each one, I discovered, considered it a manifestation of homosexuality and in an effort to prove to myself that as far as I was concerned this was wrong, I spent almost all of my generous allowance on the relentless pursuit of various girls and did not use one penny for purchase of feminine clothing.

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After graduation I returned home and started work on the estate. It had been decided I should work my way through all of the jobs I would be expected to supervise so most of the time I was out in the fields with the work- men and quickly became suntanned and muscular. During my absence my parents had made it their practice to go out each Saturday afternoon to do any necessary shop- ping in the town, have dinner in a restaurant and then visit the variety theatre which had a different show each week. The first Saturday I was home they went off as usual leaving me to fend for myself. I planned to have a leisurely bath, spruce myself up, and pick up Mr. Brigg' daughter, Carol, from her hairdressers at 5 pm. She was about a year younger than I and we had been out together four or five times before but were not dating regularly as she was still at college and usually lived at their London flat. This Saturday evening was planned as a celebration of my graduation. Her father had booked us two seats at the same theatre my parents were visiting After they had gone off in their car I had my bath and wearing only my dressing gown went straight from the bathroom to my bedroom. Mother had done my unpacking when I came home and I did not know where she had put all my clean clothes. Pulling open one of my wardrobe drawers it seemed to stick and I gave it an extra hard tug, suddenly it came easily and staggering backwards I dropped drawer and contents on the floor. In a flash the

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